6 Meditations I Brought into 2019

2019, I have been waiting for you to arrive since…. last March….

Fresh starts have always been what I live for. No matter what happens in my life, I know I can look forward to a new day, a new week, a new book, a New Moon. And it’s like the past never happened.

One practice that I was really terrible at sticking to in 2018 was meditation. In 2017, I was great at it! I woke up every morning, meditated, journaled and hit the gym.

Then life got crazy and I lost that habit and shortly after, I lost my peace of mind. Regardless, I fully intend on making meditation my priority. I’m getting back to WooSahhing.

If you are new to meditation, this is a great place to start. With the help of an amazing app called Simple Habit, here are the meditations I brought into 2019

Connect to Abundance by Julie Seibt

We can all use more abundance in our life, and it isn’t always money we need an abundance of. This meditation is great for helping you open the door for all types of abundances.

“Attract and receive abundance in health, relationships, finances and opportunity. In this practice, recognize and connect to abundance that is already present, explore obstacles that prevent you from giving and receiving more fully. You will learn to invite, receive and embody abundance as part of the natural flow of life”

Bath Meditation by Kate James

I tend to get distracted in the bath, but this helps me to be mindful and present. It is amazing for winding down at the end of a long day.

“A warm bath is the perfect way to relax and relive stress. Meditate while immersing your body in hot water to soften any tension.”

 

Bedtime Relaxation with Amer Khan

It can be difficult to turn our mind off at night. This is great for doing just that.

“Let worries about work or your day fall away. Use this meditation to help  you sink into ultimate relaxation for sleep.”

Resilience for Women by Shalini Bahl (7 Part Series)

We as women are so strong, we keep our families grounded while juggling career or hobbies. Sometimes we need a pick me up.

“This is a meditation series created for women by a woman. In this series, you will build skills to deal with different challenges. Explore different mindfulness practices that are foundational for developing confidence, resilience and ease.

For Women in the Workplace by Shalini Bahl (7 Part Series)

I already know we all need this one.

“In this series, develop the 7 essential mindfulness skills to overcome stereotypes, lead from within, and shine.

Women often confront incompatible expectations with respect to their leadership roles and gender roles. Research shows that mindfulness is one way for us women to overcome gender stereotypes and inconsistencies. Mindful women leaders are perceived to be more genuine and trustworthy. And most importantly, mindfulness makes us aware of how we perceive ourselves, so we can lead from a place of authenticity and unshakable confidence.”

Flow State by Holly Niemela

Having issues with blockages? Get ready to welcome the state of flow.

“Being in a state of flow often helps us be more present, get more work done, and feel a sense of timelessness. Whether you’d like some inspiration for a creative project, or are preparing for a few hours of deep work, this meditation will help you get into your flow state.”

 

I hope these meditations are what you are needing for a happy and healthy year/ life.


What are your favorite guided meditations you can’t wait to bring in to 2019?

What are your goals for the coming year?

Leave your answers in the comments!

 

Sensuality as an Act of Self Care

This post is inspired by Daily OM and Souk Bohemian (images featured)

Take a moment to close your eyes and thank your body for everything it does for you. Remember that it loves you and deserves your gratitude.


There are days when I ask myself, “When did I first feel shame in my nakedness? When did loving my body become an act of rebellion?”

If you’ve been on my blog recently, you are probably familiar with my 2019 Intention, reconnecting with the Feminine Divine. Part of my journey towards that intention is tapping into my own sensuality.

I first lost ownership of my body in my late teens. I was raised in a pretty religious home with parents that granted me the freedom and belief that I could be and do anything I wanted. I danced, I played piano and guitar, and I loved art. It was, however, religious authorities that caused me the most harm during an impressionable time of my life. I did as teenagers do, rebelling and falling for the boys I should steer clear from, and I was punished for it. Not all religious environments lay the foundation for shame, but mine did.  The moments I felt happiest with my body and sexuality were in rebellious acts to spite those authorities.

Its taken a lot of therapy in self reflection to see that the foundation of shame has shaped how I still see myself and my love of sexuality as shameful. So I’m doing something about it.

While bathes are my favorite form of Self Care, I’ve been focusing on allowing myself the space to embrace my sensuality. That has involved really digging deep and re-writing my story.

A Ritual for Releasing Shame

The most important task to start the re-writing of my story, was allowing myself to release the shame that has felt like an anvil on my chest. That shame impacted my relationship with my husband, my views of self pleasure, and any love I could muster for my own body. The following is a ritual by Deonesea La Fey, it allowed me to cut ties with the shame that has weighed me down for years.

Get into your comfy spot, light your candle, take a few deep breaths and relax. Now, as you begin to inhale more deeply, feel for the places in yourself where you are holding shame. Let your mind wander until it settles on a memory of a time when you felt deeply ashamed about your sensuality or sexuality. Let the memory come fully into your mind and feel the feeling of shame as deeply as you can in this moment. Notice how you experience the feeling of shame in your body…is it a sickening feeling in the pit of your belly, is it a contraction in your belly or your genitals, is it a tightening of your neck and shoulders, is it a flushing of heat across your face? Just notice how the feeling of shame shows up as a body sensation for you…and continue to feel it. Keep breathing and stay with the feeling as long as you can. Imagine the feeling as coming in like a wave in the ocean…it is coming stronger and stronger until it fully washes over you, and once it is fully felt, it will begin to recede and fade.

Now, see yourself as far bigger than this feeling. Imagine that your body sits inside of your spirit being, your Higher Self, your I Am presence…whatever set of words you use to name your soul. It is surrounding your body and now encompasses the memory and the shame you have been feeling through this ritual. Your Higher Self can breathe love into the pain. Simply imagine that you inhale into your Higher Self so that your breath fills your lungs AND fills the entire space of your energy body that is surrounding your physical body. Continue to breathe deeply in this way and see the air filling your lungs and aura with a soft pink glow. Imagine that this glow can wash away the feelings and sensations of shame, filling you now with peace and the feeling of being comfortable in your own skin. Continue to breathe in this way until you feel completely at ease.

When you have reached a place of comfort and peace, take a few moments to wiggle your toes and fingers, stand up and stretch a bit. And now record your experience in your journal.

 

Getting Honest with Myself

There is a specific narrative that goes through my head when I start craving a life full of sensuality. It is full of shouldn’ts.

I shouldn’t think about sensuality.
I should wear clothing that shows my curves.
I shouldn’t enjoy self pleasure.
I shouldn’t feel so comfortable with intimacy.

But I love everyone of those things. I should, I should I should….

I’ve been taking a course with DailyOM for Unleashing Your Authentic Sensuality. These statements are from a journal entry I wrote during the 3rd lesson:

When I imagine myself feeling sensuous and experiencing my own pleasure, what I see is a girl embracing her true identity. Sensuality isn’t something to be looked down upon. It’s uplifting and empowering. It allows you to connect with the Divine Feminine because you are feeling, and experiencing. You are closer to the goddesses that came before you, you are channeling them in an act of love and passion.

If I were to give myself permission to do something I always tell myself I couldn’t possibly do (but I secretly REALLY want to), I would Pole Dance. Erotic movement has always been an obsession of mine. I would take pole dancing and aerial silks class. I would dress like a dancer and throw myself about, letting pure joy and my ability to be graceful take control. I would honor my body by moving it in a way that taps into my sensuality. We all deserve to express ourselves in any form we like, I love erotic movement.

If I could create a space in my bedroom or in a special space in my home as an altar for my sensuous self it would look like a love letter to my Yoni. It would have various crystal Yoni wands. Polaroids of my softest places, like the rolls in my belly. Stones that connect to femininity like Moonstone, or self love like Rose Quartz. The words of Poets, like Warsan Shire:

“You are a horse running alone
and he tries to
tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are
blinding him
that he could never leave you
forget you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and
you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him traveling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
Warsan Shire

My altar would be an explosion of color, because that is what lives in side me.

 

A Pledge to My Sensuality

These are the moments I acknowledge my sensuality:

In the bath, I take time to look at the curves of my body and the way the water caresses them. The small rolls I have, I acknowledge the smoothness in my skin and express gratitude for their beauty.

Though my arms aren’t as toned as they used to be, they are strong. I express gratitude as they lift my body on the silks. Their strength allows me to feel as though I’m flying as they help me elevate and invert.

The thighs I usually chastise for their lack of definition, when a silk is locked around them, I feel as though I am levetated. They let me look graceful as I back bend and twist in the air. They let me look like a suspended ballerina.

In the place of my need for strength, I now only crave to be graceful. There is so much strength and power in femininity. There is so much beauty in using dance as a form of self expression. I am an artist, and my hands create, but now my body is art in and of itself.

So, with all of this said, I made a pledge to myself and my sensuality. I hope you will too.

 

I Give Myself Full Permission to be a Lusciously Sensual Woman and to Have as Much Pleasure as Possible in Every Way that I Desire!

 

 


What moments do you feel the most sensual and beautiful? Tell me about them below!

Take time to look at the moments your body allows you to be the best version of yourself. Use pictures of bodies doing what seems like the impossible to inspire you to do the same, not to feel envious or unworthy. Show your body the love it deserves and celebrate your sensuality.

Sacred Rituals with Yoni Wands

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Hey y’all!

I’m back with a new crystal obsession. Last night, I spent the Full Moon saging our home and a cleansing bath meditation/ritual. That inspired me to bring my new obsession to the blog.


As with most things, I first learned about Yoni Wands from a book. Crystal Healing & Sacred Pleasure is one of my favorite crystal books in the world. It’s written by Vanessa Cuccia, the founder and creator of Chakrubs, a line of crystal wands. All crystal facts in this post are via her book. It’s an incredible resource. It also redirected my interest in crystal healing to the focus of sexuality and healing sexual trauma.

A few weeks ago, in this blog post, I spoke a bit about my intentions for this year being my focus on connecting to Divine Energy. I also spoke about my miscarriage and my need to reconnect with my womb.

If you haven’t read the post, let me just say, it’s not about working towards motherhood. It’s about reconnecting to the source of my creativity and sensuality after feeling a sense of betrayal and disappointment in myself and my body.

That experience caused such a disconnect between me and my femininity. It affected how I viewed myself and my body, put me into a deep depression and stifled my expression through movement and sensuality.

In an effort to heal those wounds, I decided to take the information I’ve read in Vanessa’s book and purchase the healing Yoni Wands. (Because of the busy holiday, the wands I wanted with Chakrubs were sold out. So I went an alternative route.)


Obsidian

Via SacredHealingNYC.com

 

I purchased one wand made of Obsidian. This stone is created from volcanic lava as it cools. It is know for protecting and removing blockages.

Chakra: Root // Releasing

Benefits of Obsidian via Vanessa Cuccia

  • Creates emotional stability.
  • Assists in past life healing and can resolve issues related to previous misuse of power.
  • Assists in learning and implementing self-control.
  • Helps to overcome stress.
  • Promotes clarity when making difficult decisions.
  • Promotes positive sexual health and easing the root chakra, ovaries, womb, and menses.

 


Rose Quartz

 

Image via @AllThatShimmerzz

The second is made of Rose Quartz. As most people know, Rose Quartz is a stone that radiates unconditional love. What better way to connect to oneself than with the stone of love?

Chakra: Heart // Healing

Benefits of Rose Quartz Via Vanessa Cuccia

  • Bears a strong spiritual attunement to the Earth, Universe and Divine.
  • Stimulates sensual imagination.
  • Comforts and heals heart wounds.
  • Dissolves worries, fears, and resentments to increase the heart’s ability to give and receive love.
  • Provides a deep sense of personal fulfillment to invite inner peace and contentment.
  • Helps reprogram the heart to accept love from within.
  • Heals emotional wounds.
  • Increases feelings of comfort and nurture.
  • Helps attract new love, romance, and intimacy.
  • Inspires a love of beauty and appreciation for nature.
  • Assists in restful sleep and prevents nightmares or night terrors.
  • Can aid in reducing workplace gossip and intrusion.

My Yoni wands will arrive next week, I’ll write a follow up to tell you about them!


 

Have you heard about Yoni wands and eggs?

Do you have either?

What are your thoughts on both?

Answer in the comments!


(Click image to purchase Vanessa Cuccia’s book!!)

Awakening the Goddess and My 2019 Intention

Via Krystal’s Facebook

 

We are all divine beings of light. That’s right- you ARE divine. Yes, you. You are perfect just the way you are. Right here, right now. You are a living, dazzling child of the cosmos, dancing through time and space as a precious expression of Goddess and God.

Awakening the Goddess- Krystal Aranyani

Krystal Aranyani via her Facebook

Every year, I choose a new intention that I’d like to manifest in my life. Sometimes it comes with a mantra I’ve felt drawn to, or someone else’s words that have resonated with me. 2018 was about Femininity, and that intention really put me through my paces. I was tasked with the most divine form of femininity: potential motherhood, and was released from it within a matter of weeks. I experienced months of questioning my existence as a woman and creator of life, and ultimately fell into a deep depression. It took months to find my way out.
Any woman that has looked the prospect of motherhood in the eye and was found wanting, understands the process of trying to figure out your role there after as a woman. I’ve never wanted to be a mother, but I found myself forgetting how to be feminine.
I’ve spent the last three months of this 2018 relearning and exploring my own femininity and love for Self.

This brings me to my 2019 intention: Connecting with the Divine Feminine. That has been described as:

  • Feeling your feelings
  • Honoring intuitive impulses
  • Creating Ritual and Sacred space
  • Connecting with your body wisdom
  • Concentrating on Stillness and Honoring your Inner Voice

Last year, I think my intention was too vague and left room for experiences I didn’t want, no matter how much they forced me to grow. This post is part book review, part examples of how I am following some steps Krystal takes you through to “Awaken the Goddess within.”

She starts the book explaining what brought her to writing this book: years of bad relationships, societal expectations and eventually, a journey of self love while exploring the world. Every lesson she learned from goddesses she met along the way, are in this book in the form of rituals.

Here are a few that I’m in love with:

Divine Affirmations

Statements that are spoken or written, and often repeated, to encourage, empower, and uplift the individual using them.

Next year, I really want to attract more self love, grace, movement, and creativity. I found an incredible affirmation by Miann Scanlan that I wanted to use and add to:

Today I am luminous.
I love my body, this incredible and complex vessel that is me.
I am in awe of my body’s ability to heal, to nurture, to transform, to love, and to flourish with vibrant health, divine energy and radiant feminine beauty.
I see the perfection in every one my cells and honor this physical vehicle that I have been blessed with.
(I embrace all aspects of my creativity and feel so grateful for any and all success that comes my way, artistically.)

Journaling

Self Discovery prompts will be your best friend.

This is part of the driving force I feel in regards to blogging. What better way to get to know yourself than to write what you feel and post it for the world to see? Welcome to my inner thoughts, my new friends.

Wisdom from the Womb

A woman’s womb is the seat of her wisdom, creativity, inspiration and power.

Having experienced a miscarriage in March, I have felt an incredible disconnect from my own womb. I knew that some forgiveness and healing needed to be done, but just didn’t know how to go about it. With the help of this chapter, I performed an emotional meditation that helped me reconnect with my womb. I also spoke her affirmations aloud, allowing myself to believe them wholeheartedly:

My womb is sacred. My womb is divine.
My womb is love. My womb is whole.
My womb is healed. My womb is free.
My womb is celestial. My womb is bliss.
My womb is liberated. My womb is full of energy.
My womb is pure. My womb is powerful.
My womb is the seat of my creativity and wisdom.

(I plan on reading the book, Womb Wisdom to continue reconnecting. I’ve heard incredible things about it and can’t wait to dive in.)

There are so many incredible sacred rituals in this book, (33 to be exact!) and I’ve added them to my daily practices. I really hope you check out the book to see all of the wisdom that lies within the pages.


What was your 2018 intention and how did it manifest itself in your year?
What is your intention for 2019?
What books are you reading on your journey?
How do you show yourself Self Love?

Let me know in the comments!

(Click the image below to buy Awakening the Goddess)

A Q&A Love Letter 💌

Whether you’ve known me for years or just stumbled onto my blog, I thought it would be a great idea to (re-)introduce myself. This is a little Q&A I though would be a great ice breaker.

1. Who are you?

Short answer: I’m Nicia, a California artist. I’m also a wife and a fur mom.

2. Where do you live?

Temporarily in Connecticut, but we’ve put out to the Universe that we would like to go back to the West Coast next year.

3. What is your favorite color?

Purple, in case that wasn’t too obvious.

4. What’s your philosophy in life?

Live as mindfully as you can. Be of service to those around you. Trust the magic of the Universe and the amazing things it has in store for you.

5. What’s the one thing you would like to change about yourself?

One pattern that moving across the country has forced me to acknowledge is that I’m not big on breaking down barriers with people. Letting people get to know me here just isn’t a priority to me theses days, mostly because wherever I live will now be temporary.

That’s why I started this blog: I wanted a permanent home to store memories and to build a community around the things we have in common.

6. Are you religious or spiritual?

I was raised in a very religious household. That’s shaped the person I am, but is the source of some trust issues. These days I’m strictly spiritual.

7. Do you consider yourself an introvert or an extrovert?

Definitely an introvert. I’m typically very quiet, but that’s because I like to observe people. I’m not shy, I’m opinionated and stubborn. But around people I know and love, I’m pretty wild.

8. Which parent are you closer to and why?

So, I’m adopted by my Grandparents, (forever and lovingly referred to as Mom and Dad,) and I’m equally obsessed with them both.

I’m the most like my Dad: Quiet and serious, with a sarcastic sense of humor. But I’m also a lot like my Mom: Affectionate and self sacrificing.

9. What was the best phase in your life?

There are two:

1. The years that I discovered pottery and practically lived in my favorite ceramic studio back in California.

2. The life I live these days with my husband and fur babies. (Despite living so far from our family and friends.)

10. What was the worst phase in your life?

Don’t get me wrong, being married and having a life with my husband is amazing.

But it’s challenging, living in Connecticut away from our friends and family. Working a job I’m not connected to, feeling less and less like myself.

11. Is what you’re doing now what you always wanted to do growing up?

Not quite. I always wanted to be an artist and travel. I’ve done both on and off, but the whole point of this blog is bringing me back to my core self. Being creative and inspired is my life’s goal. This blog will document that journey.

12. What makes you feel accomplished?

Being unapologetically me. Seeing my friends and family living their best life, (from afar.) Watching my little family grow and shift and adapt for better things.

13. What’s your favorite book/movie of all time and why did it speak to you so much?

Pride and Prejudice, of course. I’m a mess of a romantic. I love the elegance of those times and the strength of the characters and their character.

14. What’s an ideal weekend for you?

Any type of adventures, whether that is wandering a new town or somewhere surrounded by art. Eating the best food, sleeping in, having drinks. And always BRUNCH.

15. Would you relocate for love?

This question is important.

Short answer is yes.

Long answer is I already have because my husband is in the Military. That’s why we’re on the East Coast and will continue to move every few years.

If it was my choice, I would be living in Paris right now. That time will come.

16. Where is your favorite place in the entire world to go?

PARIS.

I experienced it back a few years ago and it was the one place I felt the most like myself. The cobblestone streets, the art, the architecture.

Paris is the closest to heaven I will ever get.

17. Is there an activity that calms you? A place or a thing that makes you feel at ease?

Throwing on a Pottery Wheel. There’s nothing better than the gentle hum of the wheel as it rotates and the feel of the clay between your fingers. The control you have, the freedom to create anything in the world. It’s like a meditation for me.

18. What is the most adventurous thing you have ever done in your life?

Deciding to have purple hair. It sounds superficial and ridiculous, but that was the moment I let people see the real me. From first glance, I’m guarded. My black clothes and resting bitch face are misleading. I’m a dreamer and I live out loud. My vivid hair conveys that wild side of me.

19. What would you like to accomplish in the next year?

I suppose it isn’t too early for a New Year Resolution. I would love to have this blog up and running with consistent content. I’d also like to have Moss and Moonstone stocked with inventory and spending my time creating pieces for it.

I’d like to have a definitive answer about where my family is heading next, preferably somewhere on the West Coast.

I’d like to have gone on a real Honeymoon as well as a trip with my husband and my parents to Europe.

20. Now that we’ve had this chat, what would you like your readers to do?

Pick some of these questions and answer them in the comments! I’d love to know the people I’m writing to.


Thank you so much for hanging with me. Let me know if you have questions or comments, or just say hey!